just created a blog.
as the title says, the reason why I create a blog is to let other people know how I feel and what I'm thinking.
at least for those who really care about me.
and I mean REALLY.
those who had been together with me lately should know what's going on.
apart from my relationship with her, many things have been happening.
and I don't mean good things.
school, family, and love.
everything isn't going smoothly.
people say there is bound to be a major set back in one's life.
and I think mine is here.
from the start of this term, I really don't know what I've learn at school.
I haven't done a single tutorial and I hadn't been listening during lectures.
I've also been skipping so many lessons.
seriously, i don't think I'll be able to get good grades for this semester.
I don't know why but I just don't have the mood to study.
I really need to buck up and study hard.
after all, like what my mum always tell me
"you study is for your own good. next time you get a good job and good pay, you can enjoy your life."
as for my family matters, it's not a good idea to blog about it.
as the word "family" suggest, things should be kept inside my family.
as for love, all i can say is disappointment after disappointment.
the disappointment just keeps on building up.
but what goes up has got to fall.
and that will be the day when I can no longer stand it.
or should say, when I had enough of everything.
chances are hard to come by.
but when you're given a chance, why couldn't you just cherish it?
and it's not just one time.
how many chances have I given you?
countless.
but you just don't learn.
you told me that you hope things can be like how it was before.
but let me tell you this.
Impossible.
after so many things, it's just impossible.
all I get was lies after lies.
once there's a first time, there will be a second time.
that's why you just can't stop lying to me.
you broke that trust that I had in you.
but you're not trying to earn it back.
instead you're doing even more things to make me not believe in you.
it's no point saying so much.
all I can say is,
"When there's is hope, means that person still care for you. Don't wait till even the slightest hope is gone, then you start to regret."
guess I shall stop here for today.
I just created this blog so there's many things that's still not in place.
will try to solve it as soon as possible :)
update soon!
